I hold you closer than most

A boy who loved a woman like a little girl.

Circus Life

Tug of war, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Screwwwwed up? :)

Fool's Gold

Love you mum:) she's been here for a month now, and is leaving tomorrow :(

Anyhoos, here's a little anecdote from Sex and the City season 1's episode "The Turtle and The Hare":

It's always better to marry someone who loves you more than you love them.

Food for thought? What do you think? Personally, I wish it were easier to feel like you can settle, say yes to the one who's already there. I mean, all the ingredients have been mixed together, you just gotta pick that bowl and say Yes, I choose you. But more often than not, we like the unattainable, the one on the white horse, constantly falling for the thrill of chasing what may just be... fool's gold.

Just like a dream, you are not what you seem

BIRTHDAY POST!

This year, my 20th birthday, was one heck of a day. It was a Friday, so I still had lectures and dance rehearsals going on, and within all that, I managed to slot in a party.

The night before, my friend's broke the conventional and decided to surprise me in the toilet. Hah. After dance rehearsal, Sha was all "Omg I really need to pee can we pleasee go to the Architecture building's toilet. Come with me please, I'm scared :( "

Haha awww thanks guys :) Apparently the surprise was suppose to happen when Sha and I came out of the toilet but uhh the candles were burning out?? Doesn't matter, I love you guys to bits, my melb fam.

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So on Friday night, after a crazy day of beautiful texts, thoughtful wishes, a call from Darren all the way from home (aww D), lectures, rehearsals, running around getting my hair done, buying lipstick, balloons and all that jazz, I finally made it to the party (late! haha) at The Carron.

Sidenote: I will never plan a party again anytime soon. Planning's a bitch, especially when the function manager is one too.

The theme for the party was Glam Rock, so that means... Wee Lim and Ryan wore eyeliner. Haha. And WL painted his nails too.

Thanks Ryan and Sha for the speeches. Mwahhh :)

Pictures from the night.

Thanks Nicole for being the photog of the night:) And Izzie too for bringing along your cam, along with your party mix.

Biggest regret of the night: Not eating the food I ordered!!!! Ugh by the time I remembered and could get away from anything, all the food was gone!!!!!!! Nooo my seafood platter......

A night to remember. Turning the big 2-oh, and celebrating it with smiles and laughter. And some bubbly:)

:)

There are many things i'd like to say to you but I don't know how

Strange but I like it, there's something about..

Free-falling

Am staying in Melbourne this winter break. I miss home sooo much, but its okay it had to happen someday right ;) Staying here I mean. Nonetheless, I am so so so so so so so so so so so so happy that the holidays are here. Finally, that constant nag in my head that says 'you have something to do after this, so hurry up' is GONE :D GONEEEEE. Life's good B-)

The things time take away

I dreamed a dream in time gone by..

"

When hope was high

And life worth living

I dreamed that love would never die

I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid

And dreams were made and used and wasted

There was no ransom to be paid

No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night

With their voices soft as thunder

As they tear your hope apart

And they turn your dream to shame

                                                                       "

I seriously love the Glee songs this second half of its season, absolute faves so far are Poker Face, Like A Prayer, Hello and more than others the cover of I Dreamed A Dream from the play Les Miserables. 

And still I dream he'll come to me

That we will live the years together

But there are dreams that cannot be

And there are storms we cannot weather

So different now from what it seemed

Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.

Everything I Am I Give to You

Now what I am all the time is scared. Every single day. For things I want, and for things I don't. 

Random thought: I miss Italy. I miss my family and the comfort that comes along with them. We easily forget the pieces of the puzzle that already fit ours perfectly, preferring to go about forcing ourselves into the ones that don't, and getting lost in that struggle. 

As far as this sem goes,

Today is one gooood day :) I have never felt free in awhile, and today is the closest I have to that feeling for as long as I can remember. Lets call this the second best day of the sem, right after this one of course. :) 

*twinkle twinkle*

Everyone has a secret. what's yours?

Inspired by yunniex's blogpost on the website Six Billion Secrets, here are some of my faves: 

"I finally gave in and made love to my good friend of 8 years. 
A few weeks later, he was hit by a car and killed. 
At first, I was afraid he had gotten me pregnant. When he died, I prayed for a child, if only so a part of him could live on."

"I tell you lies when you ask me what I'm wishing for at 11:11. I wish for you... each and every day, and I secretly hope that you wish for me."

And my ultimate favourite, from Gives Me Hope: 

"I was at the mall the other day when I saw an old couple sitting together. The man looked over at the woman and said, 

"Jane, we did it. We grew old together."

The look in her eyes Gives Me Hope."

Aww or not you tell me:)

In Your Cradle

4 more days til I hit the 20 mark.

This is freaking me out, really, turning 20. 

20. 20. 20. Where have my 20 years been???!!!?!?! major panic attack here.

But you know what, I know that I'm beginning this decade in the most beautiful way possible, marked as someone who has really grown up and been fed allthingsyucky in order to see how the world really works. And to me, this is something I celebrate, because life really begins now. 

Take my heart, and make it new

Watch these wings grow :)